New and Exciting things

Well let's see...New and exciting thing list:

1) I have a niece! Her name is Kaelynn Madison...Melissa had a baby. She honestly didn't even know she was pregnant. She went to the hospital on the 10th and they said she probably had a cyst that broke. Monday morning she went to the gyno and a half hour later had the baby. Thank GOD everything is ok and she's been all checked out and is happy and healthy.
2) Mom has been super mean the past couple weeks. Granted she has been dealing with a lot of things, but I feel a little neglected. This past weekend I tried to call her for 3 days straight and she didn't answer. There wasn't an emergency but there easily could've been. I finally got a hold of her and she told me doesn't want me to come home this weekend. Instead, I will be heading to Cortland.
3) I have an Orgo test this thursday. No fun!
4) Thursday night my roommate and a friend and I are headed to a Halloween party. I'm being a ladybug! :D
5) I'm going to a taping of the Tyra Banks show tomorrow (shhh it's a secret) It's going to be soo much fun and we get free t-shirts.

Overall it's been a pretty up and down past couple of weeks.

Catching up

The last thing i blogged about was going to laurels. I had a lot of fun...just hung out and went to a party and whatnot.
Zach came to visit 2 weekends ago and that was a fun time. He stayed from Friday until Monday. On Saturday we went into the city and went to the Met. The art was so amazing and I had never been before. I'm more of a modren art fan than the ancient Roman and Greek stuff. Obviously I was sad when he left. I didn't have classes on Tuesday or Wednesday for the Jewish holiday. Nothing too exciting has happened in the past week. To be completely honest, I'm a boring person ahahah. This weekend I'm going into the city with laurel and seeing Legally Blonde the musical. That should be really fun and a nice change. Next weekend my mom and zach are coming down to visit for the weekend so that is something thats coming up.

I got my person for my Aquatics class. He's 26 and blind and deaf, with the exception of his right ear in which he is only partially deaf. It's going to be a struggle but he's been in the program for about 10 years so he already has an idea on how to do everything. he had said something that was so heartbreaking the other day, he asked when the christmas banquet was and we said we didnt know yet around the end of december. He told to tell him when we know because he likes to have something to look forward to. To me it was so sad to think that he has to look forward to something that for in advance. i've just never had that mindset before and it was so sad to hear. just the tone in which he said it.


Well classes are hard as always. Calculus is so rough and i had to get a tutor for it. Orgo is alright so far, but i'm determined to do better.

Overall fitness i'm trying to do better in. i havent been to the gym in a while and I have made a deal with myself that i'll be going more often and try to make it stick.

Bored

Well the past couple weeks have been pretty uneventful. School is getting to be more difficult as usual. Calculus is the hardest class ever. I cant wait untilt his semester is over with becasue I really am done with math. It's not my thing at all. I've been to the help center, and that wasn't helpful at all. This is def going to be a challenge for me this semester. Also, I've been actively deciding between pediatrics and physical therapy. Both are things that i'm interested in, especially with this aquatics class that I'm taking. It has really made me think about things im passionate about. Anyways, speaking of the aquatics class, I had it again last night. We did a dril where we had to have disablilities just like our person we're going to be helping. We did an acitivty where we had a blind fold on and had to be lead by someone around the pool. They had obsticles and whatnot, but at the very end we had to be lead onto the diving board and jump off with the blind fold on. Scariest thing of my life! After that we had our arms tied and them our legs tied so that we knew what it was like to be an amputee. the worst was when they tied my legs together...that was no fun. We get to know our cases next week. I'll keep you posted on what i end up getting. I have an Organic Chem test next week. I think i'm pretty prepared but beginning monday, my life will consist of the library and my textbook. WOO...

This weekend i'm headed to Laurels college in New Jersey. Now that we're not in the same area, I feel less hostility towards her. I feel bad that over the summer I feel so stiffled but at school i'm more than fine. It'll be a fun time though. Last time a went i became best friends with the tequila bottle.....and then the toilet. hahahaha.

Back to the Grind

Well...it's official...i'm back at school. Let's start with the Welcome Wagon. This was a miserable experience. The whole idea behind it is that we move in early and help the freshmen move in and with the freshmen activities. Doesnt sound too bad right? Wrong...first of all...no boys were here to help move people in. This means that it is a group of about 15 girls with no upper body strength. Whatever...we got over that. Then it started to rain. Then the elevator broke. Horrible day overall. And i was sore for like 3 days after.

Next up is the new suitemates. Nicole and I currently live with4 other girls, 6 of us total. The suitemates this year are amazing...Thank god! haha....they're all really nice girls and we all get along really well. We can hang out in the common room and not have to worry about black supremacy meetings or any kind of attitude. Sooooo relieved. So I've been hanging out with them a lot and they're really fun. I'll describe them. The first is our fav. Her name is Chantell. She's half dominican and half white. She's really fun and very energetic. Shes always going out to parties and has the craziest stories. Next is Christine. Shes an indian girl from this area. Very sweet and innocent. She goes home every weekend. Next is Gillian. She's a bisexual from Cali. Her 28 yr old girlfriend followed her here from Cali and they spend a lot of time together. The bisexual thing doesnt bug me at all. She doesnt seem the type to like hit on me or any of the other suitemates. Again, really nice girl. And finally comes Hillary. She's from out of state too. Shes not really in the suite much but when she is she's nice too.

Crazy turn of events....from the bitches to the nicest people ever!

Classes started this week too. All seem fine. I know I'm going to have a lot of trouble with my Calculus B class. Not only is it at 9:35 in the morning, but even though its the second class I know it's gonna be tough. Orgo is orgo....its gonna be hard but i like my professor so far. Finally is the class that I'm soooo excited for! It's called Adapted Aquatics. The whole idea behind the class is helping rehabilitate disabled individuals through water activites. Like we could be working with someone who has MS or autism or any other physical or mental disabilities and help try to make their lives better through positive reinforcement and swimming. I saw a video about it our first class and it looks amazing. By the way that the kids were responding to everything, I knew that they were really helping. It's not just a class where you sit in lecture and learn about the human body, which makes me really excited. We're given partners and we work with the same kid/adult for the whole semester. I know it's going to be emotional, but it's worth it.

Zach and I are doing well. Had a few little fights, but i told him that had to stop. He's coming down at the end of Sept. I'm really excited to see him! I miss him a bunch, but that makes it worthwhile when I do see him. We won't take eachother for granted anymore.


So far that's all that's been going on. Long post I know..haha

Long time

It's been a really long time since my last post. Life has been pretty busy the past two weeks. First, I went to Puerto Rico. It was absolutely amazing! The beachs were beautiful, the water was like teal. We also went to the rain forest which was great too. Overall it was a really fun trip.
Over this past weekend I went out of town with Zach. We went to his friends graduation party in downstate on friday and spent the night. We then went to Albany on saturday for a concert. It was my first concert ever and it was ridiculous. There were 30,000 people there and it was craziness. I had a really fun time. We were at the concert from 4:30 until 11 so by the time we left it was already like 11:30. We stayed with a friend of his from college and we passed out hard! Overall these past two weeks have been jam packed but really fun too :D. Now that i'm back home it's time for me to get back into shape and to find myself a job. ICK! hahaha...

Nick's graduating this weekend. I can't believe he's all done with high school and headed to college in the fall. I'm going to be 20 this year. I feel wayyy old...I've already gotten through one year of school. Obviously there are many ahead, but it went by so fast.

Hopefully this summer is filled with fun and greatt memories.

Anticipation

I'm anticipating the week to come. It's going to be hectic that's for sure. I have two finals on Wednesday, that are going to be wicked hard and I have to study like crazy for. I have one tomorrow, but it's women's studies and easy as pie. After finals are all done with on Wednesday I can relax for a little bit. Zach's coming down on Thursday because all of his finals are going to be done with on Wednesday. Verrry excited about this because even though I saw him two weeks ago, it's better when he's around. We plan on going into the city on Saturday and seeing the sites. He's never been to new york before besides that one time we went to the indian restaurant and bodies exhibit. I can't wait to see his face, he's basically gonna be like a little kid. hahaha....but yea, so that'll be fun. Then after that, I have to start studying for my bio final on the next tuesday. Then, after my final and my mom and zach and I pack the car wel will finally be on our way home! I'm so excited to be done. Studying is my least favorite thing of alllll time.

8 days to go....

Resolved

The issues with summer classes are resolved. i spoke to 3 acedemic advisors and got it all settled. What most likely is going to happen is that I will end up graduating in 5 years instead of 4. This isnt really that big of an issue because I planed on graduating in 5 years anyways if I had decided on a double major. Now i'll just be doing a double major or a major and a minor and everything will be fine.

I went to see Zach again the other weekend. It was really nice to see him. I really love to spend time with him because even though we do absolutely nothing, it's still really fun. I ended up staying in Binghamton with him becasue he was home for the weekend. We went out to dinner and i made him breakfast and we just spent time together. He's a keeper i've decided.

School's quickly coming to an end. My finals start next week and I've started my study time. I'm going to be really stressed for the next week. Both my calc final and my chem final are on the same day...obviously chem and calc are my worst so of course they would be. I have to do really well on both of them. Also, I have my dance showcase thing tomorrow night. I'm really excited about it, i really miss being on stage. The only thing is that the dance is still a little rough and not really a style i'm comfortable with. Even though I have known the girls in the dance for a few months, it's a little difficult to get our timing right with some things. But, I am excited about it and my friends are going to be able to see my actually dance.

My dad emailed me today. I would like to point out that this is the first contact i;ve had with him since spring break. It's nice that he wanted to talk to me...but really, couldnt he have called? Sometimes I get so frustrated. I know I could call him because he's my dad, but I have nothing to talk to him about. Thanks dad for really making the effort.

Anyways, study time again but I can't wait to be home...2 weeks to go.

Bad Day

Today was too dramatic for me to handle. There's an issue with the classes that I'm supposed to sign up for in the fall. I signed up for the major ones that I could get in to, except for the Bio class that I need. I went to the Biology Advising Dept today and found out that im pretty much screwed over. I didnt take to general chem lab that I needed to this year, so now i can't sign up for the organic chem lab i need for next year. Also, I can't get into the bio lab that I need for next semester because it's full. I found all this out and had like a freak out on the advisor. He told me i should take bio and chem during the summer. Thats all nice and good except for the fact that binghamton or syracuse dont offer the general chem lab. Even thoguh they offer the bio course i need to kind of get ahead, it goes from may 27-june ?....which means I might not be able to go to puerto rico. Looks like i'll be taking winter courses here at good old stony brook. YAY....

Besides this drama, nothing too exciting is going on. Nicole my roommate is having a bad day too. Her boyfriend decided to take mushrooms today even though she asked him not to. Her friend is coming tonight and she wanted her boyfriend to be a little sober to meet her. Overall bad day at stony brook.

I took a test last night for chemistry. Chemistry is kicking my butt hardcore, but it wasnt as bad as the last test. Oh well....everything will work out like it should...

Long time

It's been a while sicne my last post. Nothing too life shattering going on. Boring weeks really. Going to Cortland this weekend from thursday til monday (we have off for passover). Boy do I love how Jewish Stony Brook is...hahahah...Anywho, i'll write more when I have more exciting things on my plate. :)

Long week

Last week was terribly long. I had a chemistry test on thursday night and spent majority of my week studying for it. I dedicated tues, wed, and thurs to learning all the material. Even though I studied ridiculously hard, i did terribly on my test. Chemistry is really kicking my butt this semester and I'm not doing well at all. I had a severe emotional breakdown on thurs night after I self-graded my test online. (he puts up the answers after the test) I cried for like an hour straight and then began drinking. Bad choice. I knew it wasn't good to, but i was in a really crappy mood. I then managed to call Zach and cry to him for like a good half hour and he decided that he was gonna come down over the weekend to make me feel better.

Friday was fine. I was terribly hungover and vomiting. Again, bad choice for sure. But thank God my classes were cancelled that day. Zach came and we jsut chilled while I got better. Saturday we went into the city and saw the Bodies exhibit. It's amazing. I've seen it before in Boston but i'm always amazed by it. Then we went to this Indian restaurant near St. Mark's. I've never had Indian food before so we just picked different names and meats. It actually wasn't bad for something I'd never tried. The place was wild! It was like 6 ft wide and had ridiculous christmas lights hanging from the ceiling. (there's a picture on facebook that i'm tagged in with the background of the restaurant) Anywho, it's Sunday and Zach just left. I have a ridiculous amount of work this week. Not excited about it.

Long Weekend & Beginning of Break

So Zach came over the weekend because it was his spring break. He was here for 6 days. As much as I like him, i was a little nervous that I was going to get sick of him. The problem with me and realtionships is I tend to kind of freak out and decide I dont want to be in them anymore. Zach's a great guy but he's a little overbearing emotionally. In other words, he's not shy about letting me know how much he likes me and spending time with me. As nice as that is to hear, it's a little much sometimes. The 6 days weren't actually bad. He's going through some family problems right now, so i'm trying to be there for him. It's a little more than I bargained for when i started this, but i don't have a problem helping him out. I feel like he may be a little more attached to me than I am to him, but it's understnadable in his situation.

Back home for break....i love it....Can't wait to see what the rest of the week holds.

Cortland & test results

Let's see....its been quite some time since my last post. We'll start with the cortland weekend. That was a lot of fun and we got to spend quality time together which was great. He also doesn't have a roommate so we were bascially just antisocial all weekend. Watched movies, listened to music, he played his guitar for me (he's really good). On saturday he took me out to dinner at this italian place right off of campus. It's nice to go out for a change and it was a good time. I know i repeat this a lot but i do like him a lot....we'll see what happens but i hope this works out.

This week sucked though. Got both my calc and chem tests back. Did horrible on both even though i studied ridiculously hard. But i got my bio test back and did really well on that so that made it better a little bit.

This weekend should be a good time. Have to do a little bit of work , but we're going out to a party tonight. The theme is stag and drag...aka boys dress as girls, girls dress as boys....twist, who you dress up as has to be famous. So my roommate and our friend and I are going as Hanson (very 90s and great). We got flannel shirts and men's jeans. Overall, should be really fun. We're dressing our guy friends like Paris and Nicole. We just finished painting their nails hot pink.hahaha It'll be super funny to say the least.

Next week will include more quizes, a pre-health meeting, and zach's coming from Thurs-Mon cause it's his spring break. We'll see what happens after my spring break. I know it'll be hard for us to go every 2 weeks seeing eachother. It's a lot of time so we'll have to make it like every month. I really do want this one to work out though.

Spring Break is soon. March 14th-22nd.....Need to make plans with a certain special dance teacher. hahaha...let me know!

Buses & Midterms

Zach came down again this past weekend and it was great. It was just an overall chill weekend, nothing too exciting. I just like being around him so that's enough for me. Drama happened on Sunday. We went in to the city so he could catch his bus and go home. The problem is that the bus decided not to come and the next bus would be at 7:30. However, there were already people for the 7:30 bus, so he wouldn't be guaranteed a seat. Instead, he came back to Stony Brook with me and left on Monday morning. It was nice having him the extra night.
The night, the panthers had friends over. They were being RIDICULOUS! They were chasing the guys around with belts and like trying to beat them? I don't understand, maybe its like them flirting or something, but i couldn't handle it. I was trying to do work this whole time and study for a midterm i had Wednesday night, but they weren't having this. I ended up leaving my room and going to my friend's to study. Instead i had like a breakdown and started crying. I know it was because i was frustrated from them being so loud and dooing work for like 6 hours straight, but it was crazy. By the time i got back to the room at like 3, they had quieted down. The best part about this was that i had class at 8 in themorning. Lucky me. Oh well....we've been getting along with them lately so I don't wanna mess that up with one night.
I had 2 midterms this week. Chem (ick) and Bio (great). Chem was super hard and I studied the complete wrong things but oh well, i'll jsut do better next time. Bio was super easy and great. I actually really love Bio so i think that helps for sure. This is why i'm a Bio major, not Chem.
Plans for this weekend include: Pre-Med Society meeting, studying for my Calc midterm, doing a little Women's Studies reading, and visiting Zach at Cortland. Should be a great weekend :-)

Ehh

Sooo classes have been fine so far. Nothing too exciting to report. I love the ballet class so much. I wish that I could do that as my job, but i'm not stupid. We're doing a show sometime in May and we're just starting to talk about it now. I'm really excited for it.
Zach's coming again this weekend, tomorrow actually. Hopefully he's not doing the Valentine's thing, but i did get him something small jsut in case. I'm excited to see him again. He's really growing on me to be honest. I'll write more next week after he's here.

Back into the Swing of things

Well the first week of classes is over with. It was a very long week, it seemed like it lasted for like a month. I dont really like a lot of my classes, but i'll make it through them. Zach (Cortland boy) came to visit me this past weekend. It was this huge ordeal because his bus broke down half way down here. He was supposed to get in at 3:30 and instead got in at 7. It was great having him here. He was like really open about his feelings for me, which made me a little nervous. I'm not the type to really express my feelings and he was jsut really open about it. I didnt really know how to respond. Granted, i do like him and he makes me happy, but i'm jsut not goodwith things like that. We told eachother that if we found someone at our schools, we would give that a chance and not be exclusive. I honestly thought about it and i wouldnt want to do anything with another guy. Who knows, maybe i jsut haven't found someone else. I didnt think that i liked him that much, but when I said goodbye to him on sunday, I was having a really rought time with it. I'm not a crier, but i almost started crying walking back to the train from the port authority. Over all, very good weekend :)

Back at the Brook

Well...i'm back at school. Let's start with Friday night....amazinggg fun to say the least. I'm gonna miss Steph so much and it was a great way to spend one of my last nights home. Saturday....visited cortland. That was fun...no lip hickey this time thank god. Things are going well with him so far. Back at school now. Classes have been going pretty good so far. I really like my ballet class. the teacher is amazing she's nice but makes corrections when need be (which is a great combo). The only thing is that she insisted on correctin me and this one girl like 6 times in class. She hardly corrected anyone else. But oh well, i figure i haven't done this in a while so i'm jsut getting back into it. Other classes are good though, a little boring but good. The only bad days are monday when i have classes from 9-7. So it's a little exhausting. But so far...really really good. It's a little rough being back. I try not to think about home much, but i havent really had time so far. Hope things at home are going well though.

Cortland

I went to Cortland yesterday to see Zach (the date from friday and the new years kiss). It wasn't a long trip so when he asked if i would visit i did. The morning started out with me slipping and falling down the stairs. Resulted in a jammed middle finger, scrapes on my arms and my bum hurt. hahaha...anyways i dealt with it and left anyways. Got there around 10:30ish and spent the day there. Met his suitemates and he showed me campus and it was a lot of fun. Obviously there was a little kissing. He managed to hickey my top lip. I'm not sure how that happened but yea. haha...he said he would come down and visit when he could. We'll see if that happens. I left around 5. I got home and my finger turned out to be like 3 times the size it shouldve been....yea...less swollen today but more purple. I figured i'd give it a few days to heal. Have to buy things for back to school. I cant believe im leaving so soon. I can remember the beginning when it was 5 weeks and now its like 5 days. Im sad but excited to go back. I'm gonna miss everyone from home and it's gonna be weird being back, but its jsut how it is. I hope i'm less homesick when i get back than i was after thanksgiving. oh well...this week will go by fast. i'm excited for friday night though!....i have plans with a really great friend....it should be super fun...

Did pretty good typing with the one hand if i may say so myself.
:)

Date

Soooo the date was last night. To be honest it was a really really good time. It started with him picking me up and taking me to Grande's. I didn't know where we were going to dinner but I was pleasantly surprised. Dinner was great. We were there for 2 hours and talked the whole time. He was telling about school and family and everything. He's a history major at Cortland and at one point he went off on this tangent on historical China and it was so cute how passionate he was about it. Then we went to the movie, Atonement. Not really a good or bad movie...one of those ones you would rent but not see in theatres. It was cute because he's such a sweet guy. First off...he said that he wouldnt let me pay for anything (even though i planned on paying for my dinner and ticket) and then when we were in the movie he asked if it was ok if he put his hand on my leg...it was really considerate.
Anyways, he brought me home around 1 and we started to have that awkward good bye thing. Funny thing was, we made out in the car til about 4. Thats right 1-4. I dont know how that happened but it sure was a good time. I'm absolutely feelin him as a person. He's just an overall sweet guy and honestly, i dont normally fall for that. But, i feel like this really good vibe from him and hopefully it'll work out. Be it as friends or whatever. We promised to keep in touch becasue he goes back to school Sunday. Who knows what'll happen in the future but it was a great night.

Over it

Talked to Tyler and i realized how much of a jealous person he is. I dont really like that. He's leaving tomorrow and im a little over it.

New year's boy contacted me.

Hey Julie,I've been debating for a while whether or not to send you a message and/or get in contact with you. I had a good time on New Years Eve, as you know, and was curious as to whether or not you would be interested in doing something some time soon. Maybe like go to a movie or go grab something to eat. I don't wanna freak you out or anything, but I figured it doesn't hurt to ask. In any case, let me know what you think either way. Later!

Cute right?

I'm so fickle when it comes to guys. hahaha

Drama and Boys

Tuesday:
Scottland was being a jerk. I was talking to him and he asked what new things i was doing that week. i told him about how i was going out with friends on thursday and might hang out with my ex Ty on Friday. This is how it went:

Scottland: Well at least you'll be getting some.
Me: Nope. We're just hanging out. The last time i saw him was over the summer and i wanted to catch up and talk.
S: Yea right. You hit on any guy youre friends with.
M: Excuse me? I dont hit on all my guy friends thanks. I dont hit on you do I?
S: Yea well, you know youre gonna do stuff with him.
M: How do you manage to piss me off in a 5 min conversation?
S: I know you too well. I know how you are around guys.

He kept talking and i didnt respond he was jsut being such a jerk.Yes, i'm a flirtatous person but i dont hit on every guy im friends with. Haven't talked to him since tuesday. I can't stand him majority of the time.

Thursday:

Went downtown with friends. We danced all night and it was a lot of fun. I love just going to a club and dancing its so great. Ty surprised me and showed up. I had asked him earlier that week but i didnt think he would show up. He found me in the crowd...which is amazing because he hasnt seen me in a while and i was in the middle. I was really really excited to see him and it even brought up some feelings i forgot about. We danced a bit but then he went with his friends. That was more than fine. We were saying goodbye at the end of the night and he went in for a kiss and i bascially denied him by accident and turned the cheek. OOPS! Hahaha....oh well...

Friday:
Movie at his house. Nothing happened. Talking was about it as expected. Left and haven't talked to him since. (minus a few texts)

I think seeing him again and not being able to stop smiling brought up feelings...uh oh...well i'll be back at school soon so no need to worry.

2008!

Ohhhh New Years eve, eventful day/night. First go to the gym, fine. Second, circuit city did not have the IPOD that i was looking for. Third, lunch with some of my very best friends from school. That was great fun and i enjoyed it a lot. Then my brother, his girlfriend, my mom, and I were supposed to go to Kampai for dinner and my brother decided to be a jerk and not want to go anymore. Oh well, i got over it eventually. Latre on Laurel came so we could get ready for the party. This started with me curling her hair and then doing mine and drinking some wine. It was a nice start to the night. Got some pictures and dance and sang a bit. My brother drove us to the party (gotta be safe about that).

We got to the party and i knew....about 3 people...inlcuding Laurel and the hosts. Wonderful! Time to be social and meet new people. After being introduced i met some nice guys named zach and pat. I referred to pat as patty pat for the rest of the evening. I had a feeling when i first met zach, i was like.....he's gonna be my new years kiss. Anywho, Laurel made some margaritas and that was fun. I played liqour pong with zach against laurel and her friend ben. That was fun but we lost. Zach and I talked for basically the entire night and it was nice to learn about someone new. The countdown began and everything and i got a great kiss from zach.

More shots....OH BOY...Tequila this time...After these i decided to stop for the night and let my numb face and hands get back to normal. I could feel my face and hands again and zach and i go into the hallway and see laurel and ben making out! So we were like....hey, why not do the same....this led to 2 hours straight of jsut making out....I dont know why it was so fun but thats all we did.

We had to keep stopping because we were still in the hallway....we were told no rooms....so hallway it is....one of the hosts, josh, was talking with us and i asked how the make out with laruel went...he said he was kissing all his friends and then attacked me with his mouth. He bit my top lip ad shoved his tongue down my throat. I almost gagged. I look to Zach and im likee....OWWW that really hurt. Laurel and I got picked up a little bit after then. Once i got home i bascially went to bed immediately.

THAT was New years eve.....overall.....it was a really great night

Went to dance tonight and it kicked my butt. period. It has honestly never been this hard before. Hopefully that gets better before i go back to school.

I found out the other day that my roommate and some friends from school are coming up from long island and down from buffalo the weekend of the 12th! Im sooooo excited! I don't what kind of places to take them to though. They arent really club/bar people. We'll see i have liek a week and a half to figure it out.

Promise to blog more as requested :)